Last week we officially started the foster care road. I got our paperwork started and Bill and I began the foster care classes. I have been looking forward to taking these classes after hearing from several people how great they are! I was nervous about the first class though because it was hours of talking about physical and sexual abuse. We had missed the first two classes because we were on vacation. Bill and I have to alternate classes since we have 2 kiddo's that can't have their parents both gone for 3 week nights! Too much to do after they get home from school!
My second class (which was actually class#4) was about attachment. This class was more emotional for me simply because we watched a short film entitled Removed. It is a heart-breaking and beautiful film that depicts a little girl and her brother being taken out of their home and what kind of situation they are coming from and being put in a foster home and the challenges that comes with it. As I watched this I had a visual. A VOICE to all of the things that I imagine whatever child coming into our home will come come from. I try to prepare myself for the worst case scinerio. As much as I can anyways. I know there are things that may come into my home that I will feel is more than I can handle at times. Things that will make me want to give up. But I know that it is NOT these kids fault for the crappy hand they've been dealt and I am a tool to help them live a happy, secure life filled with love and validation that they are worthy of all good things.
Even though I've only taken 2 classes I feel like it's given me so much information and a new outlook on my own parenting and how I look at kids that enter foster care. I have a greater idea of why they probably behave the way they do and it makes me want to take whoever I can just to show them love.
Our goal is to adopt from foster care. We are looking at children who are currently available for adoption. I feel an insurmountable sense of pressure to find the person that is suppose to come into our family. I feel more at ease than when we first decided to adopt again. We were debating foster care or international adoption. I'd love to do both! I don't think Bill is as excited about that idea as me. Now I'm trying to convince him to buy a BIG van (as much as I despise the idea of me driving a van) and adopting several foster kids. He just rolls his eyes at me.
I am excited about our new adventure and what the future has in store for us and our family!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOeQUwdAjE0
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